Am I more interested in being real than being seen?

Mar 22nd, 2016 Posted in Thirteen Moons | Click to comment »

Thirteen Moons

Am I More Interested in Being Real than Being Seen?

As we continue our sequential  journey to recover and reclaim elements of our essential selves through the Thirteen Moons process, the first several sessions take us into deep emotionally textured memory filled terrain. These sessions focus into the earlier parts of our lives  with an emphasis of locating the the source of our resources, gifts and sacred treasures- not our deficits, limitations or fears. When reunited with our innate enthusiasm for life, we awaken connection, rhythm and flow that serves as the conduit for genuine fulfillment of not only needs but also desires. This tender alumni story  invites us into an intimate soul retrieval with her lost little girl within, reminding us that it is not the magical child who is lost but our ability and permission to believe we our innately magical beings that was in need of remembrance.

~ Susan Lipshutz, LCSW, Founder

From a Thirteen Moons Sister

The authenticity of young children can be disarming. As I raise my 5 and 6 year old children, I am frequently in awe of their sheer presence. They answer questions unequivocally that many adults can’t. “What do you want to be when you grow up?” ” A unicorn doctor, of course. To help sick unicorns.” They are not afraid to be vulnerable. When someone hurts their feelings on the playground, they say it, simply: “she hurt my feelings.” There’s no projection, no passive aggression. Just the raw feeling itself. Their artwork sings with flow and freedom. They have not yet learned to mask their creativity, for fear that their art won’t be “good” or “right.”

I marvel at these qualities in my children because they have felt so lost to me for so long. The idea of leading a life that felt authentic, true, real? Honestly, I wouldn’t even know where to start. I think about the things that gave me so much pleasure when I was a precocious kindergartener. I loved to read, loved libraries, told anyone who would listen that I wanted to be a librarian when I grew up. I would drive my father crazy by taking stacks of his books at home and stamping them and writing on the first page to “check them out” to my stuffed animals.

Suffice it to say that I did not grow up to be a librarian. But I still think about it all the time. When precisely did I resign this dream? When did I become so fearful to express my guttural, second chakra desire for that which my mind refused? As a child, I felt so invisible — that no one in my life was able to see the true me. But now as a grown adult, I finally ask myself: Am I more interested in being real than being seen?

In the second installment of Thirteen Moons, we did a guided journey that welcomed back this inner child piece of me that had, for one reason or another, departed. During the journey, I visualized riding on a great vessel through the ocean. I arrive on an island where there is one house. The house is the kind you would find in Key West — large shuttered windows flung open, a gentle ocean breeze lingering through, the sun shining above. I walk into the house, and there are ceiling-high bookshelves filled with books on every wall. Great big, soft armchairs and reading lamps are in the middle of the room. A grand, antique writing desk sits off to the side. There is a elder woman in the adjacent kitchen. Without ever having met her, I know she is my Great-Grandmother, Fanny. She’s wiping the counter, as if she’s just finished making something. She gives me a knowing smile, as if to say “I knew you were coming.” I turn back to the great room, and there she is: it’s me, at about 8 years old. She sees me, and without hesitation leaps into my arms. She’s so happy. I ask her if she wants to come with me. (Frankly, I am a bit hesitant. This house is perfect and warm; why would she want to go back to snowy Chicago with me?) But she already has a bag packed and waiting, complete with my long-lost stuffed kitty, Whisper. She’s been waiting for me. She had a feeling I was coming soon. She can’t wait to meet my children. “Are we leaving now?”

It’s an extraordinary feeling, hard to put into words, of feeling like you have welcomed back a piece of your truest self, of what many would characterize as a soul retrieval. I haven’t gone back to school for librarianship just yet, and maybe that ship has forever sailed for me. But to be reunited with that authentic little girl? Perhaps she and I are now ready for both the seen and the unseen.

~ Anonymous 

 

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For more information about Thirteen Moons, our monthly seminar series honoring the spiritual life cycle of a woman, please visit our website

 

Welcome to Thirteen Moons 2016

Jan 18th, 2016 Posted in Thirteen Moons | Click to comment »

Thirteen Moons

Celebrating Our Stories

We are thrilled to announce that as we launch our twelfth year of Thirteen Moons we are adding a new feature to the Everyday Medicine Woman blog. We will be dedicating monthly posts to bring forward the voice of our Thirteen Moons sisterhood so that we may share and witness this glorious transformational journey in a bigger and more collective way.

By honoring our stories we set our past free and began to get a glimpse of the new era this freedom could invite while simultaneously reconnecting with a deep ancestral lineage and collective global oneness.

I have been massively moved and seriously touched by witnessing each woman’s authentic wonder at her own ability to conjure big magic and life changing shifts as she begins to access a direct relationship with the unseen world. Each story connects the bigger understanding that liberates a great deal of the self­-limiting or hurtful episodes of our lives as we are getting the greater viewpoint that only a woman taking agency over her life could have about her experiences.

The Thirteen Moons Blog will be lovingly curated by two alumni sisters, Renuka and Vanessa, who will be weaving stories of alumni and new sisters alike so that each session in the series can be enhanced by the personal expression of our walk on the sacred path of remembrance together as we become keepers of our stories and that of our ancestors.

~ Susan Lipshutz, LCSW, Founder

From a Thirteen Moons Sister

Thirteen Moons Welcome

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Hello new sister. Welcome to a place where your story matters. This is a place where you are believed and we want to see you thrive. For so many years, generations of women were left to navigate an unfriendly terrain without the counsel of other women who have taken the path before or are on it now. The female guides we have been given have understood less about empowerment and authenticity than we know today and we often feel that next steps are shrouded in fear and misunderstanding. Our hearts, as women, wish to sing, but don’t yet know how. It’s not your fault. It’s not their fault. But it doesn’t have to be your future.

The voice of your heart is the probably very voice that found its way to the circle. That series of random incidences that lead you to that workshop, flyer, or woman who told you about this group? I would bet anything that this was your heart calling out to be heard. Some have heard about us and know they want to join us for the whole year. Some are on the right path but are only called to a session or two. Some have simply heard us for no reason than to know that they are not alone on their journey. All paths are sacred, but it was not an accident that you’re reading this now.

So, new sister, whether you have found us intentionally or by accident, you are welcome here. You are welcome to meet your deepest self and find where you need to change to let yourself grow. You are welcome to be empowered beyond your dreams. You are welcome to break down in complete safety and certainty that we will not judge you, we will not think you are crazy, and that you will get out to meet your truer, brighter self because of it. No woman is alone in this struggle, and never should you feel unwelcome because of it.

If your path wishes to merge with ours, I will say this to you: I hope you are ready to see your life in a new light. I hope you are ready to explore the world with wonder and hope again. I hope you are ready to confront your shadow and shine brighter because of it. I hope you’re ready to truly be seen as the magnificent creature you are. I hope you’re ready to be the majestic woman you heart knows that you are, no matter what the world has said about you before. We hope you find that love in yourself that you’re craving deeply.

Whether we know each other today, down the road, or never in the physical realm—may you find your place in the sisterhood and know we want you to truly shine like the wonderful woman you are in your heart.

~ Renuka 

 

Feeling inspired to share your own Thirteen Moons story, art, poetry, etc.? Click here for our guidelines.

For more information about Thirteen Moons, our monthly seminar series honoring the spiritual life cycle of a woman, please visit our website

 

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